BECAUSE, every once in a while, I need to be reminded of who I really Am. So “God” or Netflix sends me a superhero to inspire me to vanquish dark Powers and to know that the Force is with me in this “Princess-process!”
Here is my challenge: to save the Princess (that is, the right side of my brain) from the dungeon in which she is jailed, I must be “Prince enough” to face the dragons that block my way. Only then will I be able to be with my beloved. Yet how can I come into that much valiance when I am myself entrapped in the jail of “not enough?”
For eons, the interpretation of the Judeo-Christian-Islamic scriptures has worked to split spirit and matter. The message is as consistent as it is pervasive: the denigration of matter is linked to an Eve/Evil, whose sinful nature leads her to be seduced by the serpent. On the other hand, Spirit is the ideal that I am sworn to attain, as a heavenly light delivers me from the jail of the body and its lower urges…
Only then, I hope, there won’t be a punishing Father undercutting me with a stern “no good!” Yet no one is judging me but myself! These projections split me from the center of my authenticity, making me vulnerable to the “either or” of an addict. Whether I lose my Power to family, food, work, sex or to wanting to be right, it is the Devil who made me do it!
WHY the Formidable Force of the Feminine
BECAUSE denying the dark side of the Moon for too long unleashes the primal and ancient energy of rage that will destroy everything on its path until its voice is heard, understood and received.
Just like you, I have known pain, loneliness and despair. Just like you, I bleed when pricked. I am you, an ancient soul who came back from the future to “digest” a specific area of greed, and play my part in healing the Earth.
Greed is more than a rapacious desire for wealth. It is a will directed to Power; to controlling me, us, it – the world! It is the voice saying: “I can stop anytime,” and can’t hear its own screech. It is the anxiety that won’t quit, as it fears life in “$care City!” It is also and foremost the neurotic thought of revenge, whose terrible pain will one day lead me to give and forgive.
My will is directed to Power because, deep down, I feel that I don’t really have it since no one hears me. Therein is potentially my greatest pain: that the gifts that I am bringing would not be accepted. This is what enrages me the most. This is what leads me to become violent and want to do harm.
And yet… When I accept what seems unreal (that there is nothing out there) and live knowing that the Force is with me, the greed begins to transform into grace. Little by little, my mind opens to the sense of Enough.
When the terrible yearning begins to let go of me, I see the Truth: it all makes so much sense… How the word “matter” comes from Latin mater for “1. mother, 2. matter…” How the word “devil” is sourced in Greek diabellein for “to throw across, to project.” As for the word “Eve” is the Hebrew name I take on when the female side of my brain shifts from the Eternal NOW to what is known in Sanskrit as Samsara: the cycle of births and deaths that binds me to the material world.
Words don’t lie… I do! Just like you, I am learning to be honest. This is the only way I will ever be free of this terrible anger that is not so terrible after all, as it will drive me to the END of the false me. Therein is its purpose – to see it that the Beast reveals that it always was pure Beauty…