BECAUSE I can’t get over it: I am equally fascinated with it when I have it and when I don’t!
I want to know: what makes it that I would sometimes have “it” and sometimes not? Moreover, how can I insure that I’d never lose it? And right here is the bug to my Power program – in my quest for security! I am yet to have the courage to do the hardest thing ever: surrender my “free will” and the illusion of control that comes with it!
“Everything in the world is about sex except sex. Sex is about power.”
And it is wild! Sex is about Power (and Power about sex), because to fully enjoy either of them, I must let go of control and accept to be vulnerable. Indeed, if I am in my head, I can’t get NO satisfaction… I must surrender which, all together, is a very scary proposition… What if I did let go and still failed? And even scarier, what if I were to succeed in my creation?